Full Circle

Today, my doctor gave me the "go ahead" to start trying to conceive.

I am ecstatic. Finally! Nice Nurse called me back and said Dr. K told her there's no reason for us to wait. We can meet with the GC while we're trying and she gave us the green light. Of course, after I got of the phone with Nice Nurse, I cried. I am so happy! I'm off this roller coaster of waiting for answers (for now) to move onto another one. I know the journey ahead is not easier - just different - and I'm so glad to finally be here.

I asked dh if he was ready and his first question was "When are you ovulating". Then he said, "Are YOU ready?" I told him I am. I feel in my heart that I am as ready as I'll ever be. When we tried the first time, I remember thinking, "Okay, if I'm ever going to be ready, this is it. Let's try." Comparing the two, I have to say that I feel 100% ready compared to last time. Which is strange to me since I also have that fear. I'm scared but right now, I'm more happy.

It feels like I have come full circle in a sense. That I made it through the last 4 months and finally, I'm at the beginning again. For once (one second anyway) I can see past what "should be" and I can see what really is. That I'm here, where things are and that it's come full circle.

Today is CD32. I think I will have a 36 day cycle, if I've learned anything about my body. I'm also thankful it's toward the end of my cycle - only a few more weeks until Miss Egg is on her way.

Please, oh please, let this happen for me. And very soon.