I lost my first baby (boy) during my 21st week of pregnancy on 12/24/04. My husband and I both found the courage to try again. I hate the "again" part. We were blessed with a daughter on 4/26/06 and she's the center of our world. Here's the story of my long and emotional journey from losing the first child I loved and raising the second child I love.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

The Long Lost Update

Once I became a mom, I became the worst blogger ever. I am a totally different person now, one that I have to say I like very much and I'm very proud of. Although I haven't had time to blog, I think of my blog friends often and check for updates when I can.

Life as Mom has finally, as I call, come full circle. Things have slowed down some, but not really - I think by slow downed I mean become my new "normal". Baby is 8 months old, which I cannot BELIEVE! It's hard to think that she won't be this little forever and that I won't always be a new and hopefully overwhelemed mom.

She is the best baby ever! She sleeps 8-12 hours a night, eats like a champ and is very happy 99% of the time. We had some problems breastfeeding when she was 4 months old and I weaned right after that, which was very hard for me but I have to say that it saved my sanity and she was much happier too. We've moved onto solid foods, sippy cups and biter biscuits - and I'm amazed that her first birthday is 4 months away. Which doesn't seem all that long right now but I can think of times in my life when 4 months (make that 4 DAYS!) was an eternity.

When jumped on the computer tonight, I thought I would visit my before-baby blog because today is the anniversary of losing my first baby. The day after Christmas, just two years ago, was the saddest and hardest day of my life - which started another life changing time for me. I wasn't the same person I was just over two years ago and every day I think of the baby boy that should be here with me, but who's not. And never in a million years would I have thought that two years later, I would have an 8 month old baby girl, who is here with me and so perfect. I don't know why he's not here and she is, but they are both so special in my book - she because I get to see her every day and he, well, because he is always in my heart.

So to my long lost blog friends - comment me so I can catch up with you! I hope you're all doing well and that life, in the last 8 months, has been good to you.

Happy 2007 everyone.

3 Comments:

Blogger Anam Cara said...

Welcome back!! I check your blog every now and then to see if you have come back to blogland. I don't get to post much any more either, but I'm glad to see you posted!! I can't believe our little ones are 8 months either. And I'm glad life is, for the most part, good and that your baby girl is happy, healthy and thriving. Wishing good things for you in 2007!

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Blogger Isabel said...

I'm glad you're so happy being a Mom. You deserve it!! :-)

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Blogger Jessica said...

Randomly found your blog whil googling fertility. My husband and I have been married for 6 years, and are 26. We want to start trying this coming summer. Your blog has been really inspirational!

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